First Day of HomeSchool

Today I stopped waiting to exhale about one more thing. I am breathing HOMESCHOOL. I've made a very specific set of rules for myself. The first, 1. I will take this one day at a time. I refuse to feel overwhelmed. I've decided to let Ramses remain in school because he is receiving a proper education, and he has had and continues to have the benefit of supplemental education at home. Second Rule, 2. Follow the rules, I did my research I found out that there is a pretty awesome, inter-district support system, that will ensure that the girls get report cards and take the state tests! My soul sister Celina reminded me to make sure they socialize with their peers. So I exchanged numbers with teachers and parents so we can meet up with their old classmates on field trips, holiday and special events! This gave me an important tool to implement my third rule 3.Remember that this was their choice respect the time and remember it may be temporary. I have to make this rule so that I don't get demanding, grandiose, or a false sense of martyrdom. This is really important so that I don't break my fourth rule, 4. Do not pass on my bad habits in school. This is going to be my biggest challenge because it requires much more discipline in my behavior than I have energy to change right now. My fifth rule 5. Do not attempt to do this alone, I have asked ten people whom I love and trust to assist with different subjects.

Rule six 6. Rock the curriculum we will work to meet the state standards in Math, Science, English Language Development, Geography, World History and Social Science, Physical Education, Visual and Performing Arts, World Languages (we've chosen Arabic, Japanese, Spanish, and French. My friend Marcia assured me reaching the state standards was possible once you don't have to concentrate on 30 children. I am resurrecting Health and Home Economics and will teach them how to care for their hair, skin, body, cook and sew. I created these additional classes. Financial Education, the class will cover understanding how money works, the rules of true wealth, real estate investing for capital gains and passive income (receiving checks in the mail) and creating streams of income, with low overhead that fit into your life. Spirituality, incorporating faith, with works, and internal wisdom, to develop strength and personal power. Agriculture this class will cover how to grow flowers, food, and create insect(bug) habitats that ensure a rich harvest. Environmentalism, this class will cover respecting the planet from your room, to your property, and every where you stand while contributing to it's clean up. Animal Husbandry, this class will cover understanding the food chain, caring for animals, respecting wildlife, gaming, hunting, fishing, slaughtering, curing, storage, and cooking. I'm off!

Carnival San Francisco 2010

May 30, 2010 I found a way out of my rut. Carnivale San Francisco. I was invited to dance the three and half miles (I thought it was 14 miles) through my mission district neighborhood. Hoping to jump start my motivation to lose my stomach, I agreed to it. I wore the bikini costume because I love bikini's but my stomach wasn't behaving. Although I did seem to fit in with the islander's view on nice bodies, big and healthy and my daughters were complimentary, but they may still be too young to understand how it was for mommy before I had babies.

I don't think it's unhealthy or unreasonable to want the flat stomach. Some people are literally like "give up" or my favorite "you look fine" but I know where I want to go with my body, and a flatter stomach is where I want to be. Check out my "meaty middle" and then look at your own and decide where you want to go. I must admit I did feel very healthy and sexy the entire time. Only the french fry shaped girls were giving me the eye, but they were to shy to do anything else. HA!

I'm going to keep eating my prunes, ridding my body of waste, and remember the rules for a flat stomach, no soda, beer, fried foods, nothing white (bread, rice, crackers etc), crunches, and strength building in every work out. I think I can... I think I can... I think i can...

Lost In Time

Me and my workout are stuck in a rut, and afraid to get out. I am a gutless wimp with no back bone. The older I get the harder it becomes to maintain my dreamy state of existence. I am starting to give in to fear of making a wrong decision, and not making any at all. I know from past experience that I must stop this immediately. How on earth do I stop? I guess I must start with the basics. Time to make a new video. I am an exhibitionist and I know it. The hermetic life has served me well but sharing information is how we grow as a culture I cannot fear it. I am inspired by love and must give it, receive it, nurture it, cherish and chastise it. I am sure that it is the driving force behind all that I can do. So this is my pledge, starting to day i will not be afraid to give and show love to the fullest of my ability, despite how it twists, and changes me. Let me show you what love feels like tonight")))

December 9, 10, 11th

So much has happened that I don't know where to start. I decided that I needed a change of pace, because my workout had begun to get stale. I started doing downward dog (yoga) in the tub. Incorporating yoga into my bath routine! My bath routine, my lovely, lovely bath routine:))) Candles, no music, no lights, children asleep, man lurking about protecting the perimeter, me and 2 large cups of alkaline water (lemons, oranges, mint leaves) My mother in law had just left the bathroom, and she cleans her way out. Sinks wiped down with alcohol dry, no urine smell from the toilet, just space and white towels everywhere, and Auntie Tonia's heater under the chair if I get cold, which I won't because I have the window open and I'm inhaling that California moonlight, bathing my skin in best beauty water.....and then the epiphany hit, and I realized that I needed a sabbatical to move myself into the next phase of life.

I'm still trying to get to the body, that I want to have at 4o, I am not there yet. I should take a moment and explain sabbatical for the entrepreneur (This means you can go somewhere, but you better create a form of income while you are there, or the trip won't be paid for) I was led down south I'm feeling Alabama to Georgia (I had been to Alabama with Queen Keyetta, Chamika MyLady, and Tiaira, so I knew it, but I have never been to Georgia. I know it was meant to be, because my grandmother, whom is from Cleveland, had asked for help to come in October, to help her sister and brother in law, with some medical issues, and liabilities. Grandma's in Georgia, so is Mokeeda Brantley, Kai, Femi, and of course FlightKlub/S.C.E! (December 11th 2009-Young Exec's Bash, Alabama, Off da' Chain!!)

I am trying to convince Kai that owning and operating a Whole Foods is the way to go for our next investment, we're arguing over locations, plus she wants it to be an independent co-op and call it HOOD FOODS . YESSS but Noo. (Brandale, I need you to weigh in on this one! (18 to 34 year old demographics)

The baby is waking up....to be continued!!!

Green Festival Executive Decision

Today I did the unthinkable. I hijacked the day and decided that the children and I are going to do what I want to do. I cancelled ballet and all of the usual Saturday morning rituals in favor of cleaning, organizing, recycling, and going out and enjoy Green Festival. They are P.O.'d! What they don't know is that we're going to harness that energy refresh out space:) I've promised myself that, well at least in my mind we'll play music, laugh, and talk. In their mind I am a drill seargent of cleaning orders. I'm strapping on my belly band (until I get my ArdyssLife garment) and turn this into a workout. First I'm stretching. Stretching is like a strong cup of coffee, it wakes you up good. Then I'm going up and down the stairs, doing a little lifting careful to use a straight back, use my legs and not lock my knees. I might even find my ankles weights and strap them on! When I'm done the house will be lighter and so will I:)

Lose, Gain, Repeat, Lose, Gain, Repeat

It is so important not to be discouraged, as I have had to lose the same weight over and over again. I keep replaying video's where I can see myself in my right skin. It's not just the size of the body, but it's an attitude about myself that claims sexy femininity, and it's about my health. Having four children was a personal decision that I am proud of. However, it does require a high level of energy that I wasn't prepared for. When I overeat or don't eat energizing foods (fresh fruit, green vegetables, raw, raw, raw) I can't commit to being a fabulous mother of four. It is routine for me to put a variety of good food and fun things around me and fall asleep in the middle of the room and allow them to play around me. This is a quick fix for coming out of a food coma, but I can't sustain this way of living. The children are getting bigger, and want to do more outside of watching mommy sleep off a cheeseburger. This video show's me after three children at the height of a good raw diet for about a month. I was fast, with super great skin, and a great attitude and I couldn't be more pleased, but right now, I do not know how on earth can I recreate this miracle of a flat stomach after four children. I am compelled to do this, because I want to remain a role-model in their eyes. I want them to want to be like mommy.

Work out

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Feeling Sexy When I Exercise

I don't know why, but feeling sexy when I exercise helps me to move longer, stronger, and faster. If I can feel sexy when I am working out, it reminds me of why I am working out in the first place. I will go all out to feel sexy. The things that make me feel sexy are

1. Bikini's

2. Roller Skates

3. Water

4. Hats

5. Sweating

6. Flowers, In my hair, or received from a lover

This video really shows my need to feel sexy while working out, and how I can go for hours and hours if I do.:))

Pink Hockey Girl

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